the NIMBY rentamob paradox, on fracking, failing, and deliberate derailing.

When is a protestor not a real protestor? I’m sure there’s some kinda joke in that question, however not according to fracking supporters. Y’see there’s this thing I like to nickname the NIMBY Rentamob paradox, I will endeavour to explain it below.

Basically it states no local can ever possibly really oppose fracking, because if they do they’re just stomping their feet because it’s happening in their neighbourhood. With me so far? BUT there is also a flipside to this, the same idiots also firmly believe in a mythical creature they call a professional protestor. That is a person who makes a fortune by simply traveling from protest to protest rather than working. I would love to know what kind of business model such a protestor would use, closest I can figure out is the following exuation.   step 1.  Attend lotsa protests.            Step 2. ????????????        Step 3. PROFIT.             Apparently if any protestor  has the nerve to speak out for or against anything they are therefore either a NIMBY or a RENTAMOB.  I don’t know what magical entities may not fall into either box in the world according to the Telegraph but I have a suspicion there are none.

Thus the fr4ackers have a method of publicly dismissing all voices that oppose them, and all it takes is a few dozen paid commentors.Interesting scenario isn’t it?

When a movement is hijacked: on 269 and ruining lives.

I posted awhile ago about my pride in participating in the 269 action. Now my pride has been destroyed as good actions by so many have been hijacked and corrupted to serve a sickening agenda.

Of late there has been a growing push from within the movement to work with all comers, be they racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, or any other brand of bigot. This is a completely twisted course to take. Animal rights is only effective so long as people respect us, these actions do nothing but discredit us.

While inequality exists for ANY inequality will remain for all, the only way a movement ofr the scope and sheer size of animal rights can be effective is through intersectional activism. Nobody should be forced to sell out one belief to support another. If you want to be racist all you will do is brand a good movement as racist. If you are sexist your actions will taint the entire movement. That stain will never wash away.Of late many of 269’s actions are to my eyes as a feminist sickening, misogynistic, and add to rape culture. This is unacceptable. From bigotry springs speciesism, as long as a human being can say they’re only, be it they’re only a nationality, a sex, a sexuality, a gender, or a species the slaughterhouses will continue to thrive. After all, if we can say of our fellow humans they’re only then it reinforces the “they’re only animals” paradigm that we fight to overcome. 269 You have lost your way, please as a movement reconsider your actions, look to the consequences and change before we fail everything we fought for.

Memorial, on desecrated memories and irrational hatred.

Today I write to you all with a heavy heart. Many of you might not be aware but recently the worlds first memorial to the trans victims of hate crime was completed.

The fact people found it in their hearts to carve it was extremely heartening.


However today after about a month from completion the memorial was desecrated. Hateful messages were carved into the wood, and even the memorial plaque was deliberately mangled. Due to lack of CCTV in the area the vandals will be hard to identify, and as such they probably believe they have gotten off scott free. This entire mess fills me with sadness, I feel as if the grave of my mentor has been defiled. Most of us have lost somebody to the hatred that provokes this kind of shit, in my case the person who guided me and protected me in the early days of my transition was murdered . Every one of us knows at least one person who has fallen, and that is unacceptable. Now it seems we cannot even mourn our dead without fools such as these ruining it in some way.

I have news for this scum, whatever you try it will not work.  The memories these people left us with are far stronger than the hate of any fool. The gift of a touch on the arm, a kind word, a reassuring hug. Of the guidance those who fell left behind for us will never fade. We will heal, and a memorial can be restored. Whether you know it or not you have failed, we will remember and we will rebuild. Nothing will prevent that. Hatred will never prevail while we hang onto the love our brothers and sisters show us.

How we stand to lose our human rights: on a sleeping nation and actions taken.

I know I haven’t written much for awhile , but now I find myself writing on a major issue most folks have probably never even heard of.


How many of you are familiar with the anti social behavior, crime and policing bill 2013 ? My advice would be to get familiar with it as quickly as possible, this one lil act has the powers to cause untold damage to human rights in the UK.

As I am typing it is rapidly getting pushed through parliament. The thing about this innocent sounding piece of legislation that is most concerning is it grants new powers to police, PCSO’s and most disturbing of all private security.

The theory behind it sounds pure as the driven snow, police and security officers should be permitted to disperse any individual committing anti social behavior. Stop kids drinking on street corners, that sorta thing. However it goes a step further and only requires the possibility of anti social behavior to make a group of people disperse from public land they have every right to be on. Yes that means the location you are peacefully protesting against can send somebody from their own staff outside to order dispersal on pain of arrest. Consider that for a moment, then try to define anti social, such a slippery term. At different times ASBO’s have been granted for offenses ranging from having sex too loudly, to sarcastic laughter, and even in one case slow hand clapping as it offended the individual.

Here are just a few examples.


Partially-deaf Michael O’Rourke, 51, of Peterhead, was given an ASBO following complaints from his neighbours for tormenting them with very loud country and western music throughout the daytimes.
Mr O’Rourke was banned from playing his favourite Dolly Parton and Johnny Cash tunes during daytime hours, but was fined for constant breaches.

Caroline Cartwright, from Washington, was given a 4 year ASBO banning her and her husband from having loud sex.
For almost four years marathon sex sessions at the Cartwight household were driving neighbours mad with their moans, groans and bed-banging.
The couple were caught breaching the order for a second time, after police received a complaint that her morning wails and whines were said to be heard at 10.15am.

A shepherd was given an Asbo for using his flock to intimidate neighbours, which he breached in January.

Peter Trigger was given an ASBO stopped him from wearing skirts or showing bare legs on school days between 0830 and 1000 and 1445 and 1600.

A MAN accused of breaching a court order banning him from laughing or clapping in public has had the charge against him dropped after 20 months.

Stuart Hunt was issued with the interim Anti-Social Behaviour Order, or Asbo, in 2007 as part of an ongoing feud with his neighbours, Stuart and Shirley Latham, over their shared access road.

The 49-year-old, of Drumnadrochit on the banks of Loch Ness, is still subject to the order and claims he was accused of breaching it after calling Mrs Latham a “stupid idiot” when she blocked the road with her car in October 2010.

The charge against Mr Hunt stated that he breached the order by being “unpleasant in conversation, verbally abusive and insulting towards Shirley Latham, causing her distress”.

However, prosecutors yesterday deserted the case, which had already been called in court around 16 times, because it was no longer in the public interest to proceed.

The Asbo is one of the most unusual to be imposed in Scotland – banning Mr Hunt from laughing, clapping slowly, staring, waving objects or being rude or insulting in public.

ASBO’s have also been used at different times to ban hoodies in certain areas and impose a 9pm curfew on under 16’s even ones without a criminal record.


These are just a few examples and as you can see anti social behavior orders have a spread as broad as a yorkshire accent, and seem to be entirely left to the opinions of the person delivering the order. This effectively devastates freedom of assembly, violating the human rights act. Nukes freedom of protest, and doesn’t exactly do a hell of a lot of good for freedom of expression either. Now you see why I am so concerned, this act is already on the commons reading, and we weren’t even told it existed. This needs to be righted while we still have any human rights left at all. I have started a petition, I would really appreciate it if anybody signed, because right now we need all the help we can get.


A message to MRA’s , on hijacking and smokescreens.

This is a short and simple message to the scum in the mens rights movement hijacking our name. You do not get to speak for transpeople. So you hate radfems? Then have at least the fucking decency to oppose them in your own name not ours.

You who appropriate our voices, YOU are the enemy. At least TERFS don’t pretend they are defending you while appropriation your voice.  You who have actively opposed the treatment my brothers and sisters or indeed all my kin so desperately needed, you who oppose bodily autonomy and womens rights. Do you think the trans community will forgive your vile transgressions committed in our name? You have no honour, no courage, and now not even honesty. 

We know our enemies. Wearing our name like a sheepskin will not prevent us seeing the sad , pathetic wolf beneath. You who hurt us right through our lives, who tortured us with gender roles worsening our depression at our transness. You who enforced those stereotypes with threats and violence. You who made our lives hell. We will not forgive, and we will always remember. Most of us bear the scars of a lifetime to ensure it.

To the individual who has been threatening me. On death threats and online pests.

To whom it may concern.

I received your letters, every single one of them. Yes that includes the death threats, and the ones threatening rape and torture, and I had just 1 question. Did you think this was news to me? That your threats would somehow cause me to cower in fear?

I am afraid I will have to disappoint you. You can threaten all you like, nothing you could ever do to me can be worse than I’ve already experienced. I will never back down, not to the likes of you. I will not stop posting, if you dislike a trans person posting online you are perfectly welcome to stop reading my stuff at any time you wish. I will not be afraid of you, in fact I pity you. So blinded by your own hate you can’t accept another human being for who they are. So fearful of difference you felt the need to stoop to this just to make your hollow life seem meaningful.

Meanwhile I will do nothing whatsoever differently, and will continue to do precisely what I need to do for my own well being.Feel free to hate me if that is what gets you through the day. Do not expect me to return the favour though. Hatred is a waste of energy that could be put to far better use. I wish you luck in your life and sincerely hope one day you get your life back onto a worthwhile course. Yours sincerely,

Aura Willow Hazel.

Trapped meme, of prisons and language barriers.

Ok let’s get to opening this particular can o worms, the I am trapped in the wrong body meme has become a problem. This explanation was intended originally for one reason, to explain the unimaginable to people who could never ever in a billion years understand it, because they have no context from which to empathise, without the vital personal context trans realities are incredibly difficult, if not impossible to comprehend fully.

Explaining becomes somewhat like trying to describe a duck billed platypus to somebody who had never heard of a duck, or a beaver, or an otter.

The reality is my body is not a prison, not a cell, it is mine from head to toe, but here’s where it gets hard to explain. The issue lies in how a person percieves themselves, nobody had to tell most people they were male or female, they look at their bodies and compare to others and just know. From the day our bodies are born we have an awareness of who we are, an internal blueprint if you will. Observe a child some time in early infancy and you will see they may be a tad clumsy but even if the child cannot see or hear they are aware of their body.

They know where their feet are, their nose is, where every part of their body is that awareness is constant, even prior to social conditioning. If they suddenly grew extra parts they would no doubt be upset, why? because even as a child a brain knows what shape the body is, to suddenly alter that leads to extreme and distressing cognitive dissonance.

Now it gets tricky, the plainest evidence I can produce is the unusual phenomenon known as phantom limb. If a human being loses a limb it is a recorded phenomenon that 60 to 80 percent of cases the individual may retain sensations of movement and awareness of the presence of said limb or organ despite its loss.

This phenomenon is due to the fact the body is neurologically mapped by the brain, as evidenced by experiments showing that holding a mirror between missing and attached limb make it physically possible to stop the phantom limb itching by scratching the existing arm. Remove the mirror and the same results cannot be achieved.

In cases of transsexualism the same issue arises, the blueprints our brains are following do not seem to match to the current form of our bodies, talking therapies have of course been tested, however in all cases the experiments failed. In my life I have heard of every kind of reparative therapy you could care to imagine used in an attempt to “cure” us, from talking therapy, ammonia therapy, and exorcism, right through to electro convulsion therapy altered for use as an aversion therapy.

For proof of how ineffective said treatments are look to the barbaric case often heralded as the proof that all of a persons identity is socially defined the tragic case of  David Reimer (August 22, 1965 – May 5, 2004) was a Canadian man who was born as a healthy male, but was sexually reassigned and raised as female after his penis was accidentally destroyed during circumcision Psychologist john money oversaw the case and reported the reassignment as successful, and as evidence that gender identity is primarily learned. Academic sexologist Milton Diamond later reported that Reimer failed to identify as female since the age of 9 to 11, and that he began living as male at age 15. Reimer later went public with his story to discourage similar medical practices. He later committed suicide, owing to suffering years of severe depression, financial instability and a troubled marriage.

This is the crux of the issue, when a person states that gender is entirely social construction. I agree with that entirely gender as we currently experience it is entirely social, HOWEVER I firmly believe that transsexuality is something outside the issue of gender, something currently lacking a word as gender was never our word to use. We merely borrowed it due to absence of appropriate language to explain fully our condition. Gender is a word for the social roles a person experiences daily, we need a word that better fits the lived realities of people rather than just more words of convenience. If we ever wish to gain full agency of our full bodies, if we are ever to break the stereotypes and attain the medical care we need to transition without judgement it’s time we took our bodies back. Found our own words, and showed the world we are human beings worthy of respect not an abstract theory of some quack, and sure as hell not something to be controlled.

Sometimes we are our own worst enemy, on words and wounds.

Ok this post isn’t gonna win me any popularity contests, is it not intended to. This post is to raise awareness of actions we as a community take that are detrimental to our own cause, and to others. Without further ado I introduce the list of stupid shit we DESPERATELY need to stop perpetuating.

1. hooo boy this is a biggie, Die Cis Scum, those 3 little words are hostile and threatening, yes odds are they were originally intended as a vent by somebody who had faced violence once too often, I understand that, but still . Words of violence are never an acceptable approach in any social justice movement, we don’t need shit like that to make our point, and all it will do is alienate and divide us from potential allies of many kinds, so please knock that shit off.

2. Cis in general. Seems harmless enough right? Wrong, regardless of what the word originally meant it is now taking on an entirely new meaning and being wielded as a dividing tool and a weapon. Our enemies have enough ammo to use on us do we really really need to make their bullets for them? In time the meanings of words often change, for instance once the word slut was a gender neutral term for an untidy person, and at that time had no sexual overtones. The manner in which it was used in later times changed that, same as the word Cis, regardless of intent has now become by basis of it’s usage derogatory and divisive.

3. Sex as a social construct. STOP, JUST STOP, there is so much wrong with this I don’t even know where to begin, sex is complex sure, but sex is no more a social construct than height , weight, , race, or species. Sure it comes with a lotta social roles and other crap attached against the persons will. That is not their fault, nor does it erase their identity . That person may need to transition due to other circumstances, they may not. That does not mean just because it can be altered that their sex is any more a social construct than any other physical attribute. Transsexuality is not about the social roles, nor is sex , and neither should be. So erasing a persons lived realities and oppressions by simplifying them down to social construction is downright insulting , destructive, and pointless.  time to stop the madness.

4. but, but, cotton ceiling. Please for the good of all that is sacred cut this shit out, some people aren’t attracted to particular genitals, this is not a fault it is an orientation, we can’t change that and should never be pressured to try. Peoples sexualities are as diverse as can be imagined, some people only desire certain attributes in their partners,  some people are attracted regardless of physical attributes, some myself included are attracted to nobody but will love a good mind, and some people can only get a boner over cars. This is their sexuality and they have a right to define it however they wish. However by the same token nobody has the right to make another individual feel lesser over said physical attributes, that is unacceptable too, but has fuck all to do with the bullshit theory that is the cotton ceiling. If you wish to talk about disrespect of a trans person do it, but quit using a rapey, creepy, theory that is about as watertight as the titanic to do so.

5. telling trans men/trans women you currently have male privilege.

I know male privilege exists however here’s the thing, Trans men do not experience it, they may experience the social pressures to conform to a male role, however unless that individual is extremely fortunate in how they appear to others they will not fit into that neat little pigeonhole of male, but fun fact nor do trans women. When a person transitions they forfeit any right to the privilege they may have have and are regarded as class traitors by many.  The human perspectives are intensely binary, when a person no longer fits either class in a way society deems acceptable they are pushed by default into the  less privileged of these 2 categories by the collective, but at the same time into a third category a ? group. People dislike an enigma and as a result both trans women and trans men alongside quite a lot of queer individuals are treated rather like a sub class. We cannot afford to divide ourselves over the presence of a privilege that none of us truly have, and may have been largely been experiencing the negative sides of from the day we were born, by coercion into a male role or a female role against our desire and without our permission.

6.This one is gonna get me a lotta hate, the dreaded bathroom meme.

If a person is trans and is not in transition then the debate should end there,they should be using a neutral facility, unfortunately idiots with victorian values block construction of such facilities. If a person is on the spectrum but is a transgendered individual who still identifies as a male and has no intention of ever being anything else they should use male facilities, male identified not transitioning == stay the hell out or use a gender neutral.

7. tranny, I’m reclaiming it.

2 words for that idea fuck and that, reclaiming a slur is immensely problematic for some of us, especially the ones who still hear that word spat at them on a regular basis. Reclaiming a word is a lovely theory, one that rarely works, and when it does it pisses off a lotta people that you can use it and they cannot. If we are to let vile words die out we need to stop using them and call others who use them until they eventually fade away. Otherwise the end result  is the still hurtful and traumatic word being used and the victim being powerless to call them on it because somebody else in the community had to claim a hollow victory being able to use the slur themselves.

8. wbw space let me come in.

We aren’t the big bad wolf here, we are not doing our community any good by huffing and puffing and demanding entry at such events, nor by pushing for their closure, if anything is to change these events need to happen. We cannot and should never try to force change. Reasoned debate outside the events is a far more sensible and less invasive way of dealing with things than pushing our way in.

We are not thugs, so why act like it. If a philosophy entirely supports itself on exclusion of us then what good are we doing if we seek entry?

None, it’s like a gay man seeking to join Westboro baptist church. Trans exclusionary gatherings will never be a good place for us to be, and our presence will only lead to conflict  , our beliefs are too different.

Besides these women owe us nothing, they have their own issues to fight, many of which we can all agree on, We should accept that, aid on issues we can both agree with if we are welcomed, and if not just grant space. After all differences of belief do not mean total emnity, nor should they. Far better unlikely allies on so many feminist causes even if we differ on 1 point than at each others throats constantly.

Anyway I’m gonna stop now while I still have at least one reader left :p

Seriously , Fuck the bathroom debate.

This is doing my head in, week after sodding week the stupid bathroom debate comes round, and every time it ends the same way. Threats, misgendering, then it devolves yet further to the old fallbacks of misogynistic comments from self appointed allies of the trans community on one side, and the ever classic reversion to biological essentialism on the other.

Predictable as godwins law by this time, and it never achieves anything.For the record a lot of transwomen use the radar rooms (ungendered facilities designed for people with a valid reason they cannot change in communal facilities) when we go swimming to avoid precisely this bullshit, yet apparently even that isn’t good enough, I’ve been cornered on exiting the disabled toilets by 6 men who followed to “sort the fucking freak out” once before, thankfully I was saved after using the emergency chord to summon help, however for doing so as it was technically misuse I was fined.

What gave me away as trans? may have had something to do with using an ungendered facility mayhaps? Oh well past is past.

However given the distinct lack of ungendered facilities in most places it does produce problems, you ever try holding your bladder for hours at a time?  how about days? my current record is 2 days straight, and all this can be solved so simply , warning in advance this will sound crazy encourage construction of additional gender neutral facilities when building with private cubicles so nobody should ever see anything they don’t need to. Or even crazier, fit all bathrooms and changing areas with cubicles of a decent size, have changing outside said facilities be viewed legally as exposure in the same way as changing in the streets would be. That way nobody sees what they do not need to, people get to change in privacy, and nobody gets assaulted, while we’re at it how about fitting proper doors and walls to cubicles that don’t have a bloody half foot gap at floor level .

on fascism and animal rights, why the 2 do not mix.

OK I am gonna try to say this calmly and sensibly, that may be hard but I will try, please if you are racist, homophobic, transphobic, or in any way discriminatory against somebody based on age, race , ability or disability, sexuality, gender , sex, gender identity, or religion stay the fuck away from feminism , animal rights, enviromentalism, or any struggle in which a person humaqn or nonhuman is struggling for rights.

By reinforcing the rights of one at the expense of another  you become like the ivy in a wall, appearing to make it stronger while forcing cracks and divisions beneath the surface that will unless weeded out lead to destruction.

The strength in any movement for equality lies in a united front, if people cannot attend an animal rights gathering because they fear racist thugs how can the movement grow stronger? to the fascists at the EDL animal rights is not your promotional tool, please stay far, FAR away.

What use is gaining freedom for one if it comes with jackboots stamping another underfoot? that is not a path to freedom for any , just squabbling over the masters tools.  In recent years in the movements I support I have noticed the warning signs of this, casual sexist jokes going unchallenged, little racist comments overlooked. If this continues it will poison the causes we fight so hard to uphold. Freedom of one at the expense of another is no freedom at all, please folks when you hear crap like that I ask if you love the movement call that shit, without a moments hesitation.

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